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The Green Book Part two

This-Little-Green-Book

Part Two

April 19th. 2015

10:55 PM

My name is Melike. I’m 23 years old. Green is my favorite color and purple comes second. I studied English literature because of my love for the English language and novels. I guess that’s enough for now.

I don’t know why I’m writing this but, it might be the only way I can visualize my life through some lines. Maybe, someday my story will make a difference in someone’s life and maybe not. I love writing at midnight. something calls me to write the echoed voices inside my head, words, feelings, anger, happiness, mixed feelings; the more they increase the more they keep me awake.

I don’t write daily but, I write when I feel like I want to capture a word or a sentence i don’t want to miss or forget it. I want to type it and look at it and keep re-reading it and falling for the words, trying to write with all my senses using all the skills i have. I believe that words are like diamonds, the more you take care of them and shape them the way you want, the more they will be beautiful and valuable. But each diamond has a sharp angle that you need to be careful and precise when you touch. You might get yourself hurt if you aren’t cautious.

Words are the same they can either touch your heart or break your heart. If words came put, there is no way to take them back. What comes out never comes back.

Well at least I believe in that………

Its spring time is my favorite season. After winter, the weather is still unstable; hence you can call it a beautiful weather. As I mentioned previously, I’m in my twenties a young lady, my parents still sees me as a baby girl with a diaper. Those twenty three years aren’t counted as twenty three. They tally up differently for me. I have lived a life that is similar to that of fifty years old lady, a life full of many memories good and painful ones, many experiences, and salvation.

A twenty three year old lady from the outside, a fifty year old lady from the inside, they say your age doesn’t matter. You can be seventy and feel like you are still in your thirties and that’s what keeps you alive; to feel young forever. What if you feel old? Very old.

At the age of sixteen I fell in love for the first time and it wasn’t a quite good relationship. We were so young but, it was good to feel loved by someone. That feeling you get for the first time as a teenager, you don’t know what it is. There is no accurate decription of what you feel but you feel happy and you are constantly smiling. I love to spend time with that person; experiencing new feelings that make you feel flying for the first time. However, that relationship didn’t count, as I said we were so young we just wanted to experience new things.

When someone enters your life, not willing to stay for long and leaves, his absence doesn’t hurt you. What hurts you most is the time he stole from you. The time he stole from your life.

She stopped reading her heart was pumping so fast, her breathe is getting weak. She bookmarked the page and left the book a side shivered about how Melike and she are just the same. She can feel every word written down there in that mysterious book as if it’s her own storytelling not Melike’s. She went to sleep; that night thoughts never left her she felt for the first time that she is naked. As if she had opened up to someone, words found its way out like a running water no power can stop it from coming out. She was afraid to continue reading Melike’s green book or diary or whatever it’s called. She was afraid from exploring her own self.

To be continued………….

Choices

Signs

No longer a human being but a robot, routine kills the positive energy in a person’s life because doing the same thing over and over makes you feel like a robot you have tasks you have to finish it and get another and another. It never stops and makes you an energy sucker. You are no longer a positive person routine is killing you from the inside out.

A person who doesn’t appreciate what he has will neither have a positive energy nor is a positive life it will be hard to live a positive one when a person has a lack of appreciation.

To find happiness you must search for positivism first.

Be a human being not a robot.

I know it’s hard to turn all those negative energy to a positive action but we have to try right?

All those suppressed negative feelings, words, actions; every negative area of your life has to turn to positive and use it as a strong purpose to find your happiness. It’s never too late to change your life, yesterday was bad its OK it’s not the end there is always a way to change. God created us to undergo the good and bad days to fall and stand again to cry to laugh to get hurt and be healed. It’s about time to make a good use of it in a positive way or a negative one it’s your life and your choice. Adam chose to eat from the forbidden tree he made his choice so you can make your own choice but no one else will walk in your life and live your choices you are the one who is going to live it; so before taking any action towards yourself or your life put in mind you will be alone it’s your life it’s your choice!

Negative and positive choices will always exist as good and evil does. Control yourself control your life shape it as you want you are the owner you are the one that is responsible for his/her thoughts, actions and choices.

Blaming circumstances or people is becoming a cliche; it’s a curtain which you created where you can hide behind it blaming the circumstances or the others for what you have underwent but actually it is not true. You chose this life you took this action no one did it for you it’s you!

Every choice has its bad and good effects life is not fair you will never get all the good things all the way but by you standing on your own you can decrease the amount of bad effects in which you will find happiness in some way where you will appreciate the less of goods and appreciate what you have while others doesn’t.

Minimize the negative energy be positive be thankful be a good person with a good intentions of becoming a positive person.