Choices

Signs

No longer a human being but a robot, routine kills the positive energy in a person’s life because doing the same thing over and over makes you feel like a robot you have tasks you have to finish it and get another and another. It never stops and makes you an energy sucker. You are no longer a positive person routine is killing you from the inside out.

A person who doesn’t appreciate what he has will neither have a positive energy nor is a positive life it will be hard to live a positive one when a person has a lack of appreciation.

To find happiness you must search for positivism first.

Be a human being not a robot.

I know it’s hard to turn all those negative energy to a positive action but we have to try right?

All those suppressed negative feelings, words, actions; every negative area of your life has to turn to positive and use it as a strong purpose to find your happiness. It’s never too late to change your life, yesterday was bad its OK it’s not the end there is always a way to change. God created us to undergo the good and bad days to fall and stand again to cry to laugh to get hurt and be healed. It’s about time to make a good use of it in a positive way or a negative one it’s your life and your choice. Adam chose to eat from the forbidden tree he made his choice so you can make your own choice but no one else will walk in your life and live your choices you are the one who is going to live it; so before taking any action towards yourself or your life put in mind you will be alone it’s your life it’s your choice!

Negative and positive choices will always exist as good and evil does. Control yourself control your life shape it as you want you are the owner you are the one that is responsible for his/her thoughts, actions and choices.

Blaming circumstances or people is becoming a cliche; it’s a curtain which you created where you can hide behind it blaming the circumstances or the others for what you have underwent but actually it is not true. You chose this life you took this action no one did it for you it’s you!

Every choice has its bad and good effects life is not fair you will never get all the good things all the way but by you standing on your own you can decrease the amount of bad effects in which you will find happiness in some way where you will appreciate the less of goods and appreciate what you have while others doesn’t.

Minimize the negative energy be positive be thankful be a good person with a good intentions of becoming a positive person.

Marionettes

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When you have feelings for someone and he share the same for you it doesn’t mean that you should be in a relationship together. Hence you have strong feelings same as he does but not all relationships based on the stereotyping so called thing “in a relationship”. For some just having feelings without being committed to someone makes them feel free they think that they don’t have to be committed to something.

Things can be much easier when you don’t make promises to someone. Well, it’s ironically true there is nothing to claim that because you have feelings for this someone he has to be in a relationship with you. But we as a different society with different traditions and morals we don’t believe in this; we push each other to the stereotyping so called thing being “in a relationship”.  Having feelings for someone follows the step after which is a must to be in a relationship get engaged then marriage after.

This has to stop we have to believe in that some relationships are not meant to happen or to be completed on the follow list of relationship- engagement- marriage; some relationships has to end at some point to stay as it should be from the beginning. You have feelings I have feelings this is good but nothing else will happen. What should happen is to prevent ourselves from having even those feelings for some or actually precisely some kind of people they don’t deserve the time you waste from your life on them hoping for more or hoping to reach your peak point in the kind of relationship you want. We have to face the ugly truth of which there is that kind of people who doesn’t know what they really want yet they want everything together and that just can’t happen and will never ever happen.

You are not a marionette puppet in someone’s hands you are not designed to be manipulated by whoever is in charge. You are the owner of your life you shape your life as you want you are the manipulative and they are the marionettes.

What’s life?

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What’s life?

How life is so weird? How it can turn upside down in a minute?  Someone can die while the other is born. How can someone’s death can be a turning point in the life of the other. His life can change to the better or someone comes and fills the gap or the disappearance of the dead ones.

Life is ambiguous no one can understands it no matter how hard a one can try.

What’s life? I don’t know what life is there is no quite definition of life, people interpret the meaning of life according to how they live whether a happy life or a sad one. But to come to a conclusion there is no exact definition of life it depends on the lives of people!

Wriiten on 16th of oct, 2014

19:08 pm

No longer a victim

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Her scars define her history. She has a history she can’t deny or run from. Everyone does. So what? A history she might be shy of, yet, she is proud of herself. Those scars made her the person she is now. Those scars carry millions of buried moans. She won’t let her history interfere with her destiny.

Her decision was what comes first is self care.Fulfilling all her needs. Fights who are thinly disguised misogyny. However, her hatred increases day after day for those dominant selfish human beings.

She wrote this for herself:

  •  Fight for yourself
  • Follow your own steps
  •  Be strong
  • Never underestimate yourself
  • Be yourself
  • Care for yourself
  • Suit all your needs
  • Live for yourself

She will not be a victim anymore. She will stop this and she will take action towards the life she wants. She can shape her own life. She can break those borders. She can set herself free from the victim mentality. The victim of this society. She will destroy those dominant people, those small minds. Roles will be turned.

She is no longer a victim.

Written on the 27th of March 2015
11:30 pm

I Miss You

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You have failed me. Congratulations I miss you yes I do. I miss you; all my days are the same since the distance you created between us. I don’t know if you were planning to do this from the beginning or not. But congratulations you’ve done it well couldn’t be any better. I still miss you each time I go back and read the conversations between us it crosses on my mind the idea of; is it a history now? Are they just saved memories on the mobile? Will be moved to the archive soon Why can’t I let the memory of you go away? Why I’m still having this thought in my mind that you will come back and tell me how sorry you are. I miss you can’t stop saying it I really miss the existence of you each day. Will you ever come back again? I know you might not come back again but let me tell you something I will always miss you I will always remember you. I don’t know if it’s love or not. But your existence is something I can’t live without I might hide it but you can see it through my eyes. Love is just a word. What I feel towards you is not love. I don’t know I just miss you. I’m sorry but I miss you. I miss the way you used to tease me I miss your calls I miss your late messages at the end of the day. I miss your short messages when you are busy in the middle of the day. Can’t count the “I miss you “. I’m sorry but I miss you

Written on 23rd of March 2015
12:27 Am

The girl with no identity

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Electricity is off silence all over the place. Outside the window she can hear the voice of the passing cars in the streets and the neighbor’s dog barks at the midnight of a Tuesday night where no one else is there except her. She is drowning in her unspoken thoughts picking up a bunch of papers from the table besides her searching for a pen to start writing what she can’t tell. Minutes and hours pass and the ink of her pen drops on the papers and drew a pond.

In that moment, she has already escaped reality and drown deeper in her thoughts. That night she didn’t write anything she didn’t know from where to start. Revealing the suppressed conflicts or the sorrows inside her was a scary idea she can’t express her feelings when she tries to it ends the other way around by being misunderstood or being an enigma. She can’t understand herself sometimes whether she meant to do that or she is trying to hide her feelings. That inner conflict might stem from lack of self confidence. For her she would never be a part of anything she doesn’t belong to anywhere all her life she has been trying to belong to somewhere and it ends up by failing. She knew it from the first day she came to this world she doesn’t belong to anyone or anywhere and she didn’t really care. She is a stranger in this world for some she is a girl with no identity. Somehow that made her feel safer being a mystery to others where no one can enter her world. The only way she can reveal her thoughts is to write and keep writing about the things that frightens her from the world she is living in the one that she doesn’t belong to. She will always remain the girl with no identity who lives in a world that she doesn’t belong to.

And that thought is her safe haven in this world!

Edited on Friday 20th of march
20:30 pm

A girl in her twenties

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At the age of twenties each girl has a lot to think about; what’s her goal, purpose in life, dream job with huge salary, fashion and to find a true love get married to him, have children and start aging without noticing till she reaches her forties or something.  Then she starts thinking how she used to look  when she was a twenties girl!

BUZZ!!!!! Stop this

Let’s take it one by one.

A girl in her twenties doesn’t know what she really wants, she just look around her and start imitating the routine or what people call a “life cycle”. Like when all her friends start to get engaged, married then have children while she didn’t. She starts to think ” what’s wrong with me? ”

Am I going to find someone to love or I’ll be alone just watching others and  to keep on congratulating them while questioning myself inside when I’ll live a moment like that? When are people going to congratulate me? When? When? When? When?

As if her mind will blow out because of these questions.

Then another phase begins “this is the one, I know this is him”

The precise phase; when a girl meets a client at work attracted her she starts to question herself. Is he married? Oh no he is not wearing a ring so this is great! He is single, he looks nice and then she transforms from a working girl to a headhunter!

Girls think that if they didn’t get married this will be a shameful thing because they live in a patriarchal society where the male gaze has the authority to judge a woman’s life.

An advice for each girl in her twenties; live your life, travel, have fun, make friends all over the world, spend your money, be a fashionista be beautiful for yourself!

Don’t make this patriarchal society ruin your life through senilism and live your life as a twenty – something till the end.

 Written on the 18th of  July, 2014

16:56 pm

Searching for the light

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Walking into your own life-road having your ups and downs facing everything alone because its your road that’s fine. But here comes the but!

But when the downs exceeds the percentage of the ups everything is falling apart you are falling apart can’t help yourself from falling deeper and deeper searching for the light in your road. But all what you can see is darkness the more you walk the more you fall and the percentage for finding the light decreases and fade.. That’s not fine.

 Written on January 2015
14:30 pm